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Which One Will He Remember?

He asked again. Yesterday I said no. Today, I said yes—and maybe that’s the one.


First weekend of pool season. The sun is out, hot enough that everything feels slow.

I’d already been out all morning—errands, driving, sweating through the stops. I didn’t want to go back out. Definitely didn’t want to go to the pool.

But Luca asked.

He had that hopeful, edge-of-disappointment look already settling in when I paused. Because yesterday I’d said no.

And I thought: Which one will he remember?

Will it be yesterday—when I didn’t go, didn’t want to, didn’t push through?

Or will it be today—when I did?

I don’t know. I won’t know. Not for another twenty years, maybe longer.

But today, we went.